call me z or crow. 21 years old. paakehaa living in aotearoa (new zealand). English speaking natively, German + Japanese enough to communicate via text.

インターネットでテキストを使う会話の場合は日本語でOK。高校時代から勉強して、本当に学び続けたい。完全にオタクではない！

Falls Sie mit mir auf Deutsch sprechen möchten, bitte tun! Seit ein paar Jahren ich habe es nur allein studiert, ich liebe deine Sprache und vielleicht in Deutschland irgendwann leben wollen...

I will be annoyed if you call me they. pick a side

I am always open to talk. NOT always open to argue. I am not particularly interested in trying to make people agree with me on pretty much anything but I AM interested in hearing and sharing experiences. this only applies to female (translation: AFAB) people. males will be blocked (over whatever medium is applicable) if you even slightly annoy me.

homo. gay. butch dyke. passing womyn. butch4butch or t4t depending on who you ask. only interested in other ftms, transmascs, butches, etc.; but I'm taken already (@orphvnmvker) sorry ladies and gyntlemen

support 6b4t principles. against patriarchal rituals and practices - shaving, waxing, dieting, makeup, beauty, etc. against pornography, prostitution and "kink". against the idol industry and the general mandatory sexualization of female celebrities. support female separatism on every scale. personal is political. radical and lesbian feminism. I intentionally and unashamedly always prioritize womyn.

sometimes I like to say I'm practicing, but not religious. gender as an inherent part of my core identity is not a concept that is not consistent with my feminist understanding of the world, so I don't identify as any particular gender identity or trans or not trans anymore. still, I have the same experiences as I did when fully considering myself a trans man. I have the same dysphoria around my body, a lot of the same obsessions and fears, and I generally still prefer when strangers assume I'm male.

disclosure: I am taking testosterone and I'm not going to pretend it's a liberating feminist act or defend it. there are a lot of addictive and otherwise disordered thought patterns here. I'm working on it.

autistic and adhd (neurodivergent). long term mental illness of various sorts. sex dysphoric, body dysmorphic. too much experience in The Mental Health System. halfway towards being anti psychiatry but not quite all the way yet. definitely anti psychiatrist though.

music

mostly listen to goth umbrella stuff :)

Homeshake, Bauhaus, Drab Majesty, Boards of Canada, Tricky, Massive Attack, Orbital, Thom Yorke, Portishead, Days N Daze, Noname, The Cure, She Past Away, Tempers, Joy Division, Destroy Boys, Heavens to Betsy, Bleeders, Wingnut Dishwashers Union, Crass, Thundercat, Sisters of Mercy, Mndsgn, Shintaro Sakamoto, Aphex Twin, Tame Impala, Nujabes, Thievery Corporation, Unknown Mortal Orchestra, Shpongle, Silicon, Connan Mockasin, Soft Hair

games

monster hunter (rise & world), civilization vi, elder scrolls (skyrim + oblivion), xcom 2, zelda botw, acnh, Minecraft, ELDEN RING, cities: skylines

d&d shows

Critical Role (all campaigns), NADDPOD, Dimension 20 (Fantasy High, Tiny Heist, Misfits and Magic, The Seven, Escape from the Bloodkeep), TAZ (all of Balance, Amnesty, and Ethersea, Graduation even though Travis sucks as a DM), Dames and Dragons

other

language study (japanese + german + esperanto primarily, dabbling in all sorts as my nerd duty; mandarin, kiswahili, russian, etc), tulpas/thoughtforms/daemons (pick your preferred term).

cats. i love cats. i love every kind of cat. i just want to hug all of them, but I can't hug every cat :(